I think that nowadays people find that making a difference is so difficult. It seems that there is nothing we can do except scream endlessly into the void of twitter to express our frustration with with current affairs. And we are all cripplingly aware of the fact that this is useless.

Talking online is inevitably going to fail, bureaucracies don't pay attention to angry tweets. I don't know where I am going with this, I'm mostly just expressing my internal struggle with the desire to make a difference and the inability to do so.

I don't know if I am particularly effected by this. I feel I might be. Grappling with my powerlessness has been an unending effort throughout my life and it has impacted me greatly. Fearful of leaving no legacy, I often wonder what career path will make me effect the world the most. I kind of want to be a politician because of this, clearly this is the best way to change the world from the inside and God am I tempted. So tempted. On the other hand I could focus on improving the social world by teaching or activism or research and I don't know which path I want to go down.

I suppose I don't need to know, at 14 years old I have a long way to go. I just worry.