He doesn't want you. And that's okay. Maybe it's for the best. You want nothing more than to feel his warmth and to be wrapped in his arms. I can understand that, but he just wants your heart so he can break it. This is not love. Put down the phone. Stop calling him, he doesn't deserve to hear from you.
Don't reread the messages. Remember that everything he said, was a lie. It was a waste of time. And remember where it led to.
Find something new. He's toxic yet beautiful, I know. He's broken too, but those eyes.. They hide so much but show so little. A beautiful mixture of a chestnut with forest green. Just turn around. Those eyes looked you in the face and lied. He is not who he used to be. You don't deserve that.