Since the day school started this year which is about four weeks ago, I'm sad. There were Up's and Down's but more Down's than Up's.
Right now I'm sad, too.

Lately I'm questioning a lot of things. I don't know why I'm at school. Everyday at 6 o'clock when my alarm clock wakes me up I just want to stay forever in bed. Most people might know this feeling but it's not this "ugh too early" - reason. It's the "I don't want to go to school because I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to live today"-reason.

When I meet people in corridors they usually ask me real quick how I am but there is never enough time to talk about how I really am. How I feel. So nobody knows how sad I feel.
I think if I was gone nobody would really care because after a short time you get used to everything. And that makes me kind of sad.
No, I'm not thinking about committing suicide. I'm just wondering how it would be if I was gone. Just gone.

I don't know what's happening to me here. I don't know why I'm writing this down.
I'm just so sad. I could cry every second of the day.