To say I am lost is an understatement.
I know the feeling that I want. Calm, happy, put together.
I know who I want it with. I know the touch, the smile, the butterflies.
I can see the picture in my head. I can feel the safety. I can smell the fresh bread. I can hear the laughs.
I know who I want to be. I know how I want my hair to look, my skin, my clothes, my smile.
I know where I want to be. I can see the couch, the blanket. I can see my kitchen, the tiles in my bathroom.
I know what makes me happy. And I know exactly what I want out of life. And I think it is simple.
I don't ask for much.
Just some little things. A lot of little things. Floating around me. Making me happy.
The only thing I don't know is - how.
How to get there.
How to come to a place where I am calm and know what I'm doing.
I don't know what I am doing.
I don't know how to get there.
I am lost.
Can someone help me?