I thought I had strong feelings for you, but when you walked away, it helped me realize how wrong I was. I discovered I loved the feeling of having you, your attention, and your affection. I liked having someone there to listen while holding me and saying everything was going to be okay. I never liked you in any other way; I never felt love towards you. I mixed my feelings; I was lonely and confused. During that time in my life I was at my lowest, you came and brought with you the help I needed to get back on my feet, I thank you for that and I always will. The reality was, you could never be with someone like me, no matter how good I made you feel. I’m too messed up; my life is a disaster, I wouldn’t want to put you through the same hell you’ve already experienced with her. I'm honest when I say that I don’t need you anymore, I knew that since the moment you came back. I’m capable of fixing myself and even if you think you're going to break my heart again, please go ahead and do so. Try and break me again so I can show you how strong I am. You made me this way, be proud of it. I’m sorry for not being enough for you I’m sure you’ll find whatever it is that you need or want. Now, all I ask is for you to please not try to confuse me again. I already lost you to the worst way a girl can lose her lover, losing you again won’t hurt me anymore. I had to learn how to let go of you, the way you kissed me, the way you used to hold me, your smell, your touch, and I had to do it on my own, you weren’t there to tell me I deserved more than what I got from you. She needed you, and I did too. The difference between her and me is that I put you above anything else. She made you happy, and that was all I needed. I was never selfish when it came to your feelings, and I always understood your reasons. No questions asked I just moved on. I don’t want you to think I hate you, I never did and I never will, but how could you do that to me? I gave you the best side of me, the side nobody knew, I was vulnerable, and you took advantage of that. The reason I was able to recover without you was that I knew I was letting go of a person who wasn’t there anymore. I let go of who you were, not who you are. I discovered I loved myself more than the feeling of having you close.