he will never love me
but i am still waiting
waiting for my expectations to break again
waiting for my my hopes to go in vain
and maybe he loves to make me suffer
he doesn't know that how many nights i have spent crying
he must be sleeping knowing that i cry at 3am
isn't that cruel?
for him its nothing
he thinks i am useless
but he doesn't know what i am
only if he knew what i am
he wouldn't let me go
i am vulnerable to him
because he is the only one who makes me smile like an idiot.

x

12:15am 2/10/17