Welcome to the month april! The month of spring!

I told him no
I lied
I didn't wanted to hurt his feelings, even if he hurted mine

I knowed it would be hard, but I wanted to choose myself and my feelings. I wanted to be happy and not depressed.

After serval night of playing until the morning. I started to trust him. He trustet me a while ago. I am not the person who is trusting everyone easily because I was hurt to much for trusting to early persons I shouldn't.
But he gained my trust and I started to fall in love.

I started to fall in love without noticing anything.
Without noticing anything.
I was afraid
So so afraid
I didn't wanted to fall in love again
I was afraid to be hurted
I was afraid