Depression creeps upon you quietly. At the very
beginning you struggle with the little things, but usually choose to ignore them. Its like a headache. Youll tell yourself its temporary and itll pass. It s just another bad day. But it s not. You re stuck in this state of mind. You get used to putting on a social mask and
you continue to live among other people, because that s what you have to do. That s what others do. However, the problem does
not go away. You struggle to put on a play every day and it starts to cost you more and more. That is why you fall even deeper and
that s when you slowly start to back away from friends and family,
sometimes completely shutting them out. All satisfaction is gone. The little things that used to bring you joy are now worthless. Even the simplest tasks become painful.That is why you lack motivation. Now... why would you keep on trying if nothing makes you happy anyway. All of this makes you feel even worse and you get caught up in a vicious circle. Suddenly you find yourself living in
slow motion. Days become indistinguishable Just white noise, just... heaviness, filling your mind and spilling over your body. You feel as though you ll never be happy again. You continue to back away and destroy relationships. You re ashamed for everything you ve done and everything you haven t. There is a part of you that wants to make things right. A sudden positive upsurge makes you
want to go out and meet people but... it s all very short-lived because you know it won t work anyway. Things that make your friends excited leave you indifferent and you become aware of the huge gap that lies between you. Another failure is not an option, so in the end you choose to be alone in your comfort zone where
no one asks any questions. The low self esteem and the lack of purpose become unbearable. You finally realize you can t go on that way and two things can happen you either decide to get some help, or you.. might attempt a suicide.