And now that I've accepted it I'm letting myself feel it. I'm letting myself suffer. You're not here and I know you never will be.

But I'd rather spend the rest of my life in pain embracing what I feel, than to not feel anything at all. I already did that once. It wasn't a good choice.

But life, as love, is about taking chances, making choices, taking risks. But we're all too afraid to try.

Afraid we'll fail; afraid they won't love us back; afraid of who will we become. Afraid of what our lives would be like.

So the only thing left for me to do is stand down and do nothing; just watch the life pass by until I, too, can move on to the next pain.