I was talking to my friend the other day and she asked me what the difference between being in love and loving someone was. I told her that when you're in love with someone you want to see the best in them,you want to see them grow as a person and you want to be there to support them. When you love someone you're obsessed with the fact of being in a relationship, so you love them because they give you that. They give you the chance to hold their hand,care for them,hold them. The fucked up part is that one always loved someone rather than being in love with them. It sucks. I never understood why people would cry so much over a break up and when it happened to me, I noticed how much it can fuck you up. He told me he loved me, like yes tell me that as many times as you want. You love me but you're not in love with me. You liked the idea of being with someone but never the idea of being with more than just my body. I was so fucking in love with you. Your words, your mind,your laugh, your fucking eyes,your touch. I loved you and I loved all of you but fuck why didn't I noticed that you only liked the label. I gave you so much and you gave me what you wanted. And the worst part is that you act like you don't care. You've already been with two girls in a week. Fuck you. Fuck what you did. And fuck your love. Fuck the fact that you don't care when I still cry every week because god I would have done anything for you and the sad part is that I still would. I didn't want to break up with you. I did it because I couldn't be in a relationship where there's someone giving more love than the other person and I just couldn't be your second choice when you were my very first.

-At the bottom again pt2