I just keep playing it in my head. Over and over and over. Forever on repeat. It has played so many times that I know the exact words,
the exact timing. I know every feeling, every reaction, every movement.
It just keeps playing in my head. And I can't get it out.
I feel like I'm drowning in this ocean of what's supposed to be my mind, something I'm supposed to trust. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say, I don't know how to act. Like a fog entered my head, making everything vague, everything unclear.
I wish I could say something, but how do I explain this? How can I trust a person with this? Would anyone even understand?
I don't even understand.

I don't know how long I can take it anymore.
I don't know how long I will be able to see it playing.
Over and over again.
Forever on repeat.