It´s my own fault that I have no friends. I push everyone away. I´m afraid of people getting to close and that I tell them stuff I´m going to regret later. Stuff I don´t want to get out. Everyone that has gotten close to me I´ve ended up pushing them away.

I´ve started ignoring them. Not wanting to meet up and have fun. I´ve taken out my anger on them and saying stuff I don´t mean.

And I´ve started doing it again. To my best friend and he doesn’t deserve it. He is the nicest person alive.

But maybe he is better off without me.

And maybe I´m better off alone.