I'm sad. I've written this line over a thouand times now, trying to express his text as I want it to be, but I can't seem to find the right words. I have so much to say, but I don't know how to put it o it makes sense, so I'll just what I think.
I'm sad, and people will probably think, "well, why", or the more pessimistic ones will say "we all are". But let me tell you the reason. It's probably stupid, but I'm fed up, and I can't do anything about it.
I'm fed up of people acting towards me as if I was not worthy of their attention. I'm fed up of people stepping over me as if I was an ant. I'm fed up of hearing my supposed friends talking shit about how i choose to dress or how much time i spend reading. I'm fed up of my mom, my owwn mother, telling me I should stop eating and go to the gym because I'm getting fat. I already do mom, every fudging day I go to the gym just to make you proud.
I'm fed up of people telling me how fantastic and good-looking is my brother, and how i should be more like him. I'm fed up of teachers telling me I don't put enough effort in my work, or that I should study more. I already feel stupid enough about failing them when I've been studying since the week before.
I'm sad because I feel like I'm not good enough and I'll never be. I feel as if I always dissapoint people by just trying my best. I feel as if i could never top they're expectations. I can't be as pretty or skinny as my friends, and I can't be as charismathic or clever as my brother. I can't be good enough, not even if I try.
Why am I not enough? It's not fair. That's why I'm sad, because society has some standards and I'm not good enough to reach them.
I don't know if these is something people relate to, but if you do, pop up, because I would love to know I'm not actually the only one that feels this way, well I wouldnt, because that would mean that person would be sad to. And if you are, I could try and help, I'm not an amazing advisor, but I could try.