So today I was thinking (rare thing on me haha) and it came to my mind that I forgot who I am. It is in times like this when I notes that I'm broken. I wantes to write down exactly how I felt but somehow I can't, my mind is empty and that makes me realize that's how I feel. Empty.

There are days when I starred at myself in the mirror, with tears streaming down my face, and I beg myself to just hold on and be strong.
I don't remember what it's like to not feel broken, and honestly, Im tired of fighting. I really try to act like it wasn't that big of a deal, but now I feel like I'm drowning, I just want to close my eyes and never open them again.
But I can't, I have to deal with it, for me, not for anybody else.
I can't give up but I want to.

I know things would get better, eventually. I just have to be brave.