This is my last year of high school. Feelings? Mixed. I can't tell if I'm excited or all sentimental since I'm leaving one of the best people I have ever met. The thing is many people say high school was the worst thing that has ever happened to them. I get it. I really do. I've been through a lot during high school - I had self-concious issues, I liked a boy that didn't like me, I was betrayed by so called friends, I was being talked about so many times I've stopped counting it.

girl, model, and black and white image

People love talking. But mostly they love gossiping. People were spreading so much bullshit about me and it hurt me. It really did. But that's the thing I've learnt - you can't take it so seriously. And you can't trust everyone. If people want to know something about you, the person they should be asking is just and only you.

books image

And the last thing I want to mention is that unsettling feeling of not fitting in. i've never fit in. I guess I'm just not that type of person. But I wanted to. And I tried really really hard. I even did things that didn't feel right. I went agaist myself just to make people like me. Believe it or not, you can never ever make people like you. I tried to be super confident and funny and nice and amazing and look like i don't care. I tried to get drunk, I tried kissing boys, I tried being rebelious. Nothing worked. Nothing will. The only thing you have to do is be YOU. And when people don't like who you are, they don't deserve to be in your life. YOU ARE unique and YOU ARE amazing without trying hard to be one of THEM. Remember that.

autumn, coffee, and fall image