*currently listening to: best of me by bts*

My boys just had a comeback and I couldn't be more happy or satisfied if you don't know bts look into their new album, issa banger about self-love and loving others.

Okay, now that the shameless promotion of my boys is over, let's get on to the real reason for this entry. It is honestly crazy that this is my tenth entry and that people actually read my stuff, so I just want to say thank you to anyone who cares enough to read my articles whether it be one or all.

I'm a crybaby

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This past weekend I failed my road's test within less than ten minutes, after being told by multiple people that I was ready.

Maybe the reason why I took it so hard was that I never liked driving to begin with. Maybe it was because I felt like I had disappointed my father who was the main advocate for me getting my license at 16. Maybe because I finally started to look on the bright side of getting my license and it was snatched away.

Now, you're probably wondering what I did to fail so quickly and the simple and heartbreaking answer is that I didn't make a COMPLETE stop at a right turn. So, instead of the guy taking points away, he failed me instantly which completely unheard of and harsh considering we paid 70 to take the test and waited all day for my turn despite our very clear appoint at 10:30 am which turned into 1:40 pm.

I cried about this all day, I took a nap and woke up to cry again because each time I had explain what happened... hurt.

I probably seem dramatic but from my point of view, I think it was healthy because I hadn't cried in a while and it was a nice release. In fact, I think it bettered my week because I feel light. Like, everything I was holding in or didn't know I was holding inside had escaped me on Sunday.

Not gonna lie, I expected my father to be angry due to the time and money invested but he told me something I couldn't stop replaying in my head, everything that God does, is right. There must have been a reason for why I failed it in such a short amount of time. I'll never know why but I have faith that the reason is greater than my desire to get a license and I can live with that. He also told me that when something doesn't go your way that it's okay to be sad or disappointed. If you're not then you're a hypocrite.

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If you're going to take anything from this is, that sadness is normal, and crying is healthy. Don't be ashamed to break down when life throws curves your way but remember that curves are in place to steer you in a greater direction. Also, do lots of research before taking a road's test, I failed to do so and relied upon hearsay which screwed me over.

This worthy but it also helped me vent. I'm thinking my next article will be on what to do when you're sad or a article on personality and staying true.

Anywho, thank you for reading and feel free to send me stories of something that happened that went the opposite way than the way you wanted it to.

Well, this was sad, toodles.

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9.19.17