It feels like I'm falling in a never ending hole, it's getting worse everyday and i can't stop it

I can't stop the monsters in my head that tell me that i don't deserve to be loved

It feels like screaming but no one is hearing and it feels like crying but no one is seeing

It feels like everyone is judging me no matter what i do and it feels like I'm invisible at the same time, my head is a big mess that no one can solve.