I just want everyone to know that I'm okay.
I'm okay and I'm just taking some time off,
just taking some time to breathe.
It doesn't matter whatever happens,
but I'm always going to be okay.
For anyone who doesn't know what's going on,
there's pretty much nothing that's going on,
it's just my brain that's going on.

And all I want to do is just be in my house.
I'm so fucking sick,
I'm just so fucking sick of the world.

People aren't mean to me,
but I hate seeing people being mean to other people.
It sucks when you want to change the whole world,
but you can't because you're just one person.

I just want to save everyone,
and sometimes,
all the universe's positives coming into me,
and I'm just handing it out to everyone else,
and I'm not keeping any for myself.
I really should,
but if I could save other people,
I'd rather save them than myself.

But how can I help other people when I'm not even alive.

I just wish this brain could stop wanting to hurt myself.
I just wish that I could find a way to cure myself.
Life is a fucking journey,
and I'm trying,
I'm trying so fucking hard.
And it sucks because I'm trying to be a good person,
and I kill people with kindness,
and I just want the best for everyone.
I want everyone to be happy.

It sucks because sometimes I put people in front of me,
I put people before me,
but the best relationship you can ever have is with yourself.
And I'm still working on that.
I'm trying.
I'm trying so fucking hard,
and I appreciate everybody's support that I'm getting but something's fucking triggering me.
I don't know what is it and I think it's just,
It's just that,
it doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter whether I'm here or not,
the sun will continue to shine,
the grass will continue to grow, the birds will sing, the trees will grow,
people will live and the world will continue the cycle.
and I will be another person in history that no one will remember.
But this is so depressing,
and I don't want to depress people.

I can't sleep properly because who can sleep when your brain is constantly ticking.
and I'm just...
going fucking insane.