@TypicalGirl48 has set up a 30 day challenge where you have to answer one question each day for 30 days to let your followers know a bit more about yourself. I will try to post one article every day but maybe I will have to skip a few days due to school stress. You can find the original challenge here:
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Day six

What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

Phew. The hardest thing I have ever experienced includes another person so I won't talk about that online, I hope you understand that this is very private for me. I have thought about the question what the second hardest thing for me was a lot since yesterday (I was sick yesterday so I'm posting today, I'm sorry!!) and I think I found the answer just now, as I'm writing this article. The hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life so far would probably be an episode from fall 2015 to spring 2016. It began when I broke up with my ex boyfriend and then went on vacation with my family where I was pretty isolated from my friends because I had no internet connection and my thoughts began to become darker and darker. Music began to become something really important for me and I began identifying myself with the music by the popular band twenty one pilots. Whenever I felt down during fall and winter I would listen to Imagine Dragons and twenty one pilots. I became really sad and felt hopeless and distanced myself from friends, family and classmates and also struggled with a few other issues related to depressed thoughts which I won't elaborate further in this article because that's something I don't like to tell people and sharing it with thousands of strangers on the internet wouldn't make me feel comfortable. Then, in January 2016 my cat, Freddi, (named after Freddie Mercury) died after struggling with heart problems for a few, hard weeks. He had been really important for me over the last months before he deceased because I always felt like he was there for me even though I couldn't talk to him or something like that but, everybody owing a cat will understand me, cats know when you feel down, they just know. When I was crying he would lay down next to me, watch me and even try to wipe away my tears with his cute little head. So when he was gone, it felt horrible. But after he died, things gradually became better. Until a few months later when I started to get nervous more often, especially in school and I began to cry every morning before school because I felt so down and hopeless that I didn't see a sense in going to school. But, as all things in life, it eventually got better and when my summer break started, for the first time since that long, sad phase of my life I felt truly happy and alive and loved and it was so amazing when I thought for the first time again "maybe it really will get better" and could honestly believe it. And what I have learned from these months is that things will get better and it can be so so hard to get through hard stuff in your life but eventually you will get through it and find happiness.

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If you feel down or just want to talk to someone please message me and I listen to you. You're never alone, even if you think you are, you are not.

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