dear past best friend,

i guess i have to say past. you didn't talk to me a while. i just wanted you to know that i loved you. i really did and i guess i still do. i still remember all our moments. you saw me. through all my faces and masks, you saw me. i was free when i was with you. i was me. i allowed my soul to let go when i was with you. i forgot all my problems and issues. i really loved you. everytime you touched me, all my pain was gone. everytime you hugged me, all the hate was gone. i smiled right when i saw you and i thought you did the same. my favorite memorie is still when we sat in my kitchen, at 2am, didn't care about the life and just lived. when i was with you nothing else counted. how tacky it sounds - it was us against the world. but we stopped. why did we stopped? how could i lose you? you are still there i still see you. but you are gone. we didn't speak in a while so i just wanted you to know that

dear past best friend,
i miss you.

- johannadreamworld