Moving to a new school or starting at college/university can be intimidating. Especially when you're socially awkward and don't possess the confidence to interact with new people.

I don't even know where to begin explaining how I feel. I feel so anxious every time the subject of university or my future pops up. In a couple of days I'll be in a new country where I know no one. Where I'll live alone without family for the first time in my life. So many responsibilities to carry out and the stress I feel is so overwhelming. My stomach is in knots and I'm in constant fear that I'll be alone and too nervous to change that.

Change can be good life. Leaving behind bad memories & toxic friends. But it can also bring fear and uncertainty. All these negatives thoughts and possibilities are always consuming my mind. I'm constantly stuck in this anxious phase, unable to look at the bright side.

I didn't choose to be this way. Trust me, if I could push away all these draining thoughts I would. Overthinking things makes it worse but this just seems to be the way I am.

I hope that I find myself at home, happy and grateful. That I fit in with the other students and and find my my purpose in life. I pray that in two weeks, I can't stop gushing about this great change, that I finally have no reason to feel anxious and stressed.

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I long for the day when everything feels complete...