It's just too much sometimes. There are loads of moments lately when it's just all too much. I think of so many things I want or have to do. There are so many things ahead I'm afraid of. Things I'm afraid I have to do, things I'm afraid I won't do. Things I'm afraid won't happen. It's just so much and right now I feel like I'm losing my mind, I have no control and it's all too overwhelming... Usually, if I'm in a bad mood I listen to music, try to daydream or just do something which distracts me from reality, from my problem. But lately that doesn't work. Whatever I do, no matter how long I try to flee reality, when I have to be present again, I immediatly feel lost and like it's all getting too much again.