(This is the third in my series of school related articles so be sure to check out the other two. My most recent is http://weheartit.com/articles/296795376-making-friends-at-school-scaredaf4college)

So if you have read my previous article you will know that I was panicking so much about college and it just happened to get worse.

The first day was great, I was out of my comfort zone but I ended up having a lot more fun than I thought I would. I made new friends, went for lunch with them and exchanged social medias which was great. I travelled to and from school alone on a train (which I hate) yet I found the experience calming and it gave me a great sense of independency that I don't usually experience. (I even sat opposite a super cute boy on the train home which was bonus!!)

The second day however was terrible. I didn't even go. On my walk to the train station I started panicking and stressing out about nothing, by the time I got near my school I was having a panic attack and couldn't bring myself to go into school. I didn't inform my school and ended up just walking around and getting myself some food before getting on a train and leaving. After my train journey I walked to my family members work and stayed with her for the rest of the day until another family member picked me up and took me home. I got lots of sleep and after resting up I realise how silly I was for getting stressed out over nothing, LITERALLY NOTHING!! Yet my panic attack was a wake up call for me as I realised I needed to push myself out of my comfort zone more and go along with the ride (even though I don't know where the hell it's taking me!)

I don't have to go back to college until Friday which give me a lot more time to reflect on my second day at college. Although it was a scary experience for me I think it has helped me. I am unsure of what I want to do in the future (I'm doing Film and TV but I don't think I'll go into that career field just want the experience tbh) I am happy that I have time to leisurely enjoy my teenage years before being thrown into the life of an adult!!

Hope you guys are all enjoying school/work/anything else you're doing!

- Meggs xx