(This is the third in my series of school related articles so be sure to check out the other two. My most recent is

So if you have read my previous article you will know that I was panicking so much about college and it just happened to get worse.

The first day was great, I was out of my comfort zone but I ended up having a lot more fun than I thought I would. I made new friends, went for lunch with them and exchanged social medias which was great. I travelled to and from school alone on a train (which I hate) yet I found the experience calming and it gave me a great sense of independency that I don't usually experience. (I even sat opposite a super cute boy on the train home which was bonus!!)

The second day however was terrible. I didn't even go. On my walk to the train station I started panicking and stressing out about nothing, by the time I got near my school I was having a panic attack and couldn't bring myself to go into school. I didn't inform my school and ended up just walking around and getting myself some food before getting on a train and leaving. After my train journey I walked to my family members work and stayed with her for the rest of the day until another family member picked me up and took me home. I got lots of sleep and after resting up I realise how silly I was for getting stressed out over nothing, LITERALLY NOTHING!! Yet my panic attack was a wake up call for me as I realised I needed to push myself out of my comfort zone more and go along with the ride (even though I don't know where the hell it's taking me!)

I don't have to go back to college until Friday which give me a lot more time to reflect on my second day at college. Although it was a scary experience for me I think it has helped me. I am unsure of what I want to do in the future (I'm doing Film and TV but I don't think I'll go into that career field just want the experience tbh) I am happy that I have time to leisurely enjoy my teenage years before being thrown into the life of an adult!!

Hope you guys are all enjoying school/work/anything else you're doing!

- Meggs xx