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I DON'T WRITE THIS FOR PITY, I SIMPLY WRITE IT AS A COPING MECHANISM

Here's 'Dear World (3)':

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I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
Who can relate?
I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine

I don't wanna be alive
I don't wanna be alive
I just wanna die today
I just wanna die
And let me tell you why

All this other shit I'm talkin' 'bout they think they know it
I've been praying for somebody to save me, no one's heroic
And my life don't even matter, I know it, I know it
I'm hurting deep down but I can't show it
I never had a place to call my own
I never had a home, ain't nobody callin' my phone
Wher you been? Where you at? What's on your mind?
They say every life precious but nobody care about mine

I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
Who can relate?
I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine

I want you to be alive
I want you to be alive
You don't gotta die
I want you to be alive
You don't gotta die
Now lemme tell you why

It's the very first breath
When your head's been drowning underwater
And it's the lightness in the air
When you're there
Chest to chest with a lover
It's holding on, though the road's long
And seeing light in the darkest things
And when you stare at your reflection
Finally knowing who it is
I know that you'll thank God you did

I know where you been, where you are, where you goin'
I know you're the reason I believe in life
What's the day without a little night?
I'm just tryna shed a little light
It can be hard
It can be so hard
But you gotta live right now
You got everything to give right now

I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine
Who can relate?
I've been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine

I finally wanna be alive
I finally wanna be alive
I don't wanna die today
I don't wanna die
I finally wanna be alive
I finally wanna be alive
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die

Pain don't hurt the same, I know
The lane I travel feels alone
But I'm moving 'til my legs give out
And I see my tears melt in the snow
But I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry anymore
I wanna feel alive
I don't even wanna die anymore
Oh I don't wanna
I don't wanna
I don't even wanna die anymore

This is a song called 1-800-273-8255, sun by Logic, Alessia Cara and Khalid. I recently found out about it and I'm in love with it! I listened to it on repeat during the whole school day today. Yes, I finally went to school today, only because Blondie bribed me with Starbucks. I know, #classicwhitegirl :). So anywho, I got ready and put my outfit together which will be shown below;

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Picture creds to Blondie, as I put in the caption of the post. Also! I usually post all my pictures that will be in my article, beforehand, so if I go out on a posting spree, it's only because I never posted the pictures onto my account so I can put them in my article.

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I also want to thank all of you for my 100 followers! I have a bit more than 100, right now! So let's aim for 200! I can't explain how happy that made me when I found out I had 100 followers. I was like am I really that interesting? I highly doubt you followed me because I'm interesting, but it still means a lot, so thank you!! I also started a collection of the 'Dear World' articles, so you won't miss out on any article;

Now, let's get back to the story :)

When I tell you that my music is the only way I got through the day, I truly mean it. I swear if I didn't have my music I would've hit someone. Everyone stared at me as I walked through the halls with Blondie. Most of the day was ordinary, until I crashed into Captain Crunch, literally.

The hall was completely crowded, and someone shoved into me, causing my small feeble body to go crashing into Captain Crunch's hard muscular back. To be fully honest with you, I think I hurt my nose crashing into him.

"Oh, hey Sara." Captain Crunch said as if I just didn't face-plant into his back. "Can I talk to you privately?" I remember after he asked that feeling angry. I honestly believe he didn't want to be around me because he knows what happened to me. I scoffed, "so once you find out about me you don't want to be seen around me? You think you're going to get cooties or something?" I asked him, annoyed with him. I honestly believed he was different than those other dipsh*ts, guess I was wrong.

"What? Who told you that? You honestly believe I would do that?" The way he asked that almost made me think I was wrong. But when his buddies came over saying, "Yo, what are you doing talking to this freak?"

Captain Crunch gave me a mean look before turning away, saying the words that completely shattered my broken heart. "I don't know, the freak crashed into me."

His friends grinned, "why don't you just leave? Obviously wants you here." One of them said and I just ignored him, walking away, but that's when I saw Blondie talking with Monica's 'friends'. "Yeah, she's such a freak," Blondie said, breaking the shattered pieces of my heart into more broken pieces.

I just couldn't deal with it, so I ran to the bathroom and cried. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I'm just done.

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Sincerely,

Sara Carson