Saturday, Sept. 9th. 11:27 PM.

I'm going to keep my best friends name a secret. In this article, we're going to call him "A". (Heart this if you love Pretty Little Liars lol)

"A" has been my best friend since sophomore year of high school. We would get comments from our friends saying "Oh my gosh, you guys would be such a cute couple." But we thought that was a joke, so we would just laugh it off all the time. I didn't think of him as more than a friend back then.

I remember that I would get super jealous of his past girl friends, because a part of me wanted him all to myself.

It was senior year, and me and "A" had English class together. Our teacher put on a movie for us to watch after we finished our work. I sat next to "A" and after 30 minutes into the movie, he fell asleep. He fell asleep because i was playing and running my fingers through his hair because that's how close we are. In that moment, that's when I realized that I might be in love with my best friend. I'm still in love with "A" and we're juniors in college right now.

Every time I get a message from him or see him in person, I get really nervous. My heart beats super fast, I start sweating, my anxiety rises, and I start blushing. "A" has such a huge effect on me. I could stare into his eyes all day.

What's sad is that I know he probably doesn't feel the same way about me. I haven't told him that I like him because I don't want to mess up our friendship. I don't have the guts to tell him and I don't think I ever will. I'm gonna keep it a secret for now. Can you keep it a secret too?

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