Lately I've been getting different information from different people and I don't know what to think... I'm trying to move on from what he did. He broke my heart and he was lying to me the whole time. I did nothing wrong. He made me feel like I wasn't wanted and that I wasn't good enough for him. Then when he ended things, he continued to talk behind my back. How was I so stupid to think that it was going to be different the second time... he constantly played me and thought of me as some kind of fool. I didn't deserve what he did to me. I'm trying to move on and forget about it but he's pulling me back. It's like I take 3 steps forward to get knocked down 2 steps back. Everyone is telling me "you guys should just be friends" but they don't know what he did. He should make the effort to come talk to me and tell me the truth and apologize like a decent person would. He doesn't have the balls though so...So I'm going to move on with my life and if he does decide to talk to me, which will probably be a long time from now or never, then it will be neither wanted or needed. It's funny how I expect so much from someone who hurt me in the first place. Sometimes if you can't get closure from the one person you need it from, you just have to find it yourself and sometimes you just have to move on.
I'm not sure if any of you can relate... but this was just my personal experience...
I'm going to end this article with this poem that I found helpful when he made me feel bad about myself:
when you are broken
and he has left you
do not question
whether you were
enough
the problem was
you were so enough
he was no able to carry it.
By ???
I wish you only the best <3