So, probably I won't get much attention, which is fine, I'm not even sure if I'm even going to post this. Who knows, maybe I did.

Anyways, I've been reading a lot of articles about people who have anxiety, depression etc. And honestly, I feel like there is so much to say, I feel horrible thinking that so much people out there feel like they're alone or they feel so unsure about everything and it makes their head explode. I myself was in a situation like this, not sure if I can compare, because honestly, everyone suffers differently.

I've always had anxiety, and I guess I always will have it. But, I've come to accept it, its part of me and its okay. I had so much anxiety thanks to so much crap that happened at home when I was a little girl, this lead me to be as people call it, a "crybaby", in elementary school I swear I'd cry for the most dumbest reasons, and you know, it isn't funny, its the anxiety that talks for you. I would cry just because I couldn't reach a certain thing or I didn't get picked in a team or stuff that in reality, once you come to think about it, didnt't really matter, but it did for me in those seconds I was balling my eyes out.

And sooo I'm still a crybaby, at least on the inside I am. I rarely cry now, but I guess thats because I've matured more and been through a lot. Maybe one day I'll talk about it, but for now, I'm keeping it to myself.

Anyways, there was a point in my life, when I was in 8th grade, where I was so insecure about everything, I wanted to fit in so badly that I completely lost myself, I faked everything and once I knew people didn't like me, you have no idea how much it would affect me, I felt like, I didn't fit in, like I was a nobody, that I was completely alone. But I wasn't. Now I didn't have the greatest friends, in fact, I don't even think those people were my friends. Because I guess they weren't at all (thats some story I might tell someday) and I knew that, yet I pushed to be liked but I failed.

Thats until I discovered that, no matter how hard I try nobody will ever be satisfied and you know what? That day will never be erased, because it was the first time when I finally stuck my middle finger to the world and screamed F*** YOU WORLD, I started to learn so much about myself, it was some what, magical. And to this day, I haven't complained at all, I enjoy my life even though I still have my anxiety attacks, everything comes to a solution.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, you guys aren't alone, I wish I could talk to all of you, but sadly I can't. So I hope this is good enough, but we are not alone, because we have ourselves, there is this quote I found that says something about how we should learn to love and take care of ourselves because we are the only ones who will be there when nobody else is, and trust me, being with yourself isn't as bad as people make it seem. And trust me when I say this, once you start being yourself, you'll eventually find people who will love you for you, maybe it won't be right away, but eventually it will happen.

And if you think you're not good enough for the world, Do you think you were put here to fail? Hell nah, you are here because you can do this! But if you don't believe in yourself, then who the hell will? If you let people give you the perspective of your life, it will suck forever, but if you give it your own perspective by finding what makes you happy, you'll never get tired of life.

Nobody was made to fit in, we were all made to stand out.