People always say to be happy and love yourself.
People always say that positivity rules and you should be around loving people that will teach you how to love.
People always say that blocking out anything negative is good and will help you be happy.
Love.
Happiness.
Positivity.
Those are the key elements that control society.
"You don't like me? I don't care."
"You shouldn't be so sad. It's not good for you."
"Honey, maybe you need to go to anger management and deal with all that hatred and rage. It's unhealthy."
Every time someone mentions anger, they are ridiculed and told to get help. Every time someone gets depressed, they are told that there's something wrong and that depression is bad.
Anger.
Depression.
Fear.
Hate.
These are the feelings that are frowned upon by society. I can't get angry because it's bad. I can't feel depressed because it's bad. People don't give a care in the world about negativity, because negativity is bad.
I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of being told there's something wrong with me. I'm sick of being told to "get help." I'm sick of being told that my behavior is not normal. I'm sick of being told to stop caring what others think and let it go.
I can't "let it go." My brain does not work like that. I take in every word. Every criticism. Every hateful thing. I absorb it like a sponge. I do care. I can't not care. It's not who I am. I'm too sensitive for that. My brain is not the same as yours, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I am so damn emotional. I'm sorry that I'm not good enough to suit your needs. I'm sorry. For everything.
Those people that can just shrug off the opinions of others? Those people that don't care what anyone thinks of them? Those people that walk on living their lives and letting everyone's critiques of them bounce off of them like they're meaningless?
I hate them.
I'm jealous and burning with rage because it's so EASY for them not to care. It's so SIMPLE for them to just move on like nothing bothers them. It's so EASY for them to just live life without any problems.
I HATE THEM.
Just once, I'd like someone to tell me that feeling angry ISN'T bad. I'd like someone to tell me that feeling depressed ISN'T bad. I'd like someone to tell me that negative emotions are okay and that it ISN'T bad to feel them. I'd like someone to tell me that happiness isn't always the answer. I'd like someone to tell me that it's okay to not be okay.
