I need answers to some questions. Existential questions. Why is it so hard to reach happiness ? Why am I such a failure when it comes to be good enough for others. I spent most of my time trying to please everyone and I'm still trying to do this. Why people always remember your mistakes and forget about the good things you've done. Why do people spent their time trying to bring you down, make you feel worthless ?
What would you say to someone who's tired of living ?
I'm staying strong but I'm exhausted and I'm losing control.

I'm sorry for all this sorrow but I'm lost in confusion for years now