Hi,

I wrote something not so long ago and i'd say i got pretty good feedback, so here i am introducing myself.

Let's begin where it all started, shall we?

A while back, I fall into this dark period in my life but, looking back, i probably had no real reason for it.

The main reason was that my friends were (and still are) in the group of the smartest people in my school, meanwhile, im in the "below average" group and i had a strong belief that in the whole high school establishment, i was far from being the prettiest girl there.

During that time, I couldn't talk to anyone and i didn't feel like talking either. I had a shrink that my dad suggested i visit to make me talk to him and i felt weird telling her things considering i barely know her, plus, I didn't think i was in a good position to talk about the dark empty pit that was sucking the life out of me since, well, im known for my happiness and carefree attitude.

I also didn't talk about it because i didn't want to look like an attention seeker nor did i want people to walk on eggshells around me.

When I was having panic attacks about the fact that i sucked as a person and i couldn't do anything progressive, i refused to think about ending everything there, simply because i love the people around me too much to do that.

So instead, I poured my heart out in writing, wether it was poems, stories, random texts, all of which are long gone, drawing also helped, but not as much because i would go to the conclusion that i suck at drawing.

So that's pretty much how my love for writing and my dream to become a journalist was born.

A few months later, when i was better than ever, i told 2 out of 5 of my friends, because i was ashamed of myself for what i had thought and at pretty much the same time, i had written all the stuff i kept buried inside and started to have writers block.

I began to have a lot of stress because I thought that I was back to square one, and didn't know what to do with my life.

So I considered quitting my dream but then, i found out that writers practically have writer's block more often than actually being able to write.

Anyways, thanks for reading this far and I promise I won't do anything this long ever again!

yours truly,
me.