Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. 2 Corinthians 5 vs 17

Dear past me,
I will skip the formalities, I will not ask you if you are well because I know you're not. I will not ask you how life is because I know that you're just going to lie and say that everything is okay when we both know it's not.
I won't ask you any questions about yourself because I already know the answers to them. I know you because I was you.
I know that you cried yourself to sleep alone every night. I know that you hurt yourself physically because you just wanted to feel anything other than the emotional pain.
I know that you faked your laughs and your smiles. I know that you were hurting inside because so many people hurt you and let you down.
Yeah, that ache in your chest. That painful ache that felt like a black hole is sucking everything up. Yes, I felt it too.
I know that empathy wasn't something you'd expect to receive because you just never believe anyone would understand.
That's why you never told anyone anything about your problems.
Dear past self. I felt it too. All of it.
I felt the disappointments, I felt the heartbreak and the loneliness.
Dear past self, I do know how it felt and I understand.
But most importantly I'm so grateful it did happen.
Sure, I wish someone had been there to tell you how beautiful you are. I wish someone had been there to assure you that everything would be fine in the end.
Dear past me, I wish someone could have saved you all the heartache and pain.
But in all honesty, look how great everything turned out in the end.
I can assure you that we're really awesome. No kidding, we rock.
We're happy, we've never felt so good.
It's really unbelievable, we don't need compliments or mirrors to tell us how beautiful we are now.
Dear past self. We fell in love...
You see, we needed a hero... so that's what He became.
Dear past self. We're fine, I promise.
He's always here, with us. He makes us laugh and smile and believe it or not but none of it is faked.
Dear past self, He rescued us from drowning.
Dear past self, he saw us for who we are and not who we wanted to be.
Dear past self, remember that lump in our throat? It's gone now. It's finally gone.
Dear past self?
We're free.
I know there's no use in writing you this letter because you're gone...
But I just wanted it to exist because I need to remind myself not to go back to being you.
Jesus is alive and He saved me.

Sincerely, the better version.

And put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth. Ephesians 4 vs 22