So tomorrow I turn 16 and it is completely crazy. I was thinking about it today, my last day of being 15. This year has been one of the hardest years of my life. Multiple times I seriously considered suicide. The only reason I am still here is because of my friends. They were my rock and they made me keep fighting even when I didn't want to. I came home after school today and cried because I have survived 16 years of hell and despite wanting to give up so many times this year I am still here.

I had one friend say to me, "Don't give up now. You have come so far from when I first met you. You have already made it 15 years in this world, why not make it longer? Why not see what you can do?"

And thinking about that, he had a point. In 15 years I had completed majority of my schooling. In 2 years I will have finished my schooling. In 2 years I will be completely free and able to make my way through life how I want to, for me. Do whatever and be whomever I want.

So no matter what you're going through, wether you think the future is worth it or wether you honestly just want it all to go away.
Keep fighting. You don't even have to fight just survive.

Survive and you can conquer anything

Stay strong my lovelys

P.S. Thank you to my gorgeous friends. I honestly would not have survived this year of my life without you <3