The last train wreck I endured for years, to the very end. It ultimately blew my mind and allowed me to access past memories, long buried. Years ago I wasn't able to accept the natural assets I had nor was I able to do my best with the options they gave me. I hadn't planned on ever being where I am now.
I have identified a long list of defects which have contributed to the present state of affairs. Combined with some very unfortunate elements which were beyond my control.
What did come to mind was how lucky I had been. If you meditate long enough the good fortune will come to mind.