hey guys, lemme tell you a story. so basically i've being a friend to a guy, we are so close, haha i always give him food that's maybe the main reasons we become close haha idk :))) then i know we can only be friends. yeah haha i lowkey love him tht time but i know that he just broke up w/ his girlfriend so like yeah i don't wanna messed up our relationship as friends and yeah doesn't want to make him feel more pain. yeah love is all pain. so i've decided to remain as friend we chat all day but when we meet at class, he will be acting all weird and even i dont know how to act.

so we've been chating for a long time and i really love to talk to him cause we share the same interest which is football (or in my country we called it rugby) so i keep asking him how he doing, is everything fine and he even disturb e in class just to show me a pair of boots and like we already agreed to share our money to buy him that boots. so basically after being so close to him, he tell me that he got a game on Sunday but i got work to do on that day so like i cannot watch him play so i decided to buy him smthg (and again food obviously haha f00ds everYwhERE) and i meet him that night and give him the food and before we seperate to diff ways (yeah cuz boys hostel not at the same place as gurls) so like i said bye to him and he did the same way and when i turned back to my friend that accompany me (cuz im gurl ok sorry im not scared but yeah nervous i already told you i love him right) and my friend was like "babe, he said i love you to you just now" and i was like "please dont be joking right now" then she was like " im not kidding gurl quick before he go far" and i without any hesitation turned around and screamed "i love you too" and that nighta i was so happy im on the seventh cloud i told ya...

Now, everytime i say hi, he will just smile. so one day, i make a choice to buy his favourite cookies just for him eventhought that time i was broke af. hahha i dont even have enough money to buy food for myself. so yeah after we finished our class, i wait for him outside the hall and when he came out with his friends, i went to him and give him the cookies and yeah he was like "oh thanks!" and then he go and i was like "omg he so handsome im so blind" idk what im doing yeah you guys i throw myself to him oh my im so ashamed and hurt at the same time. the worst part is he keeps ignoring me and idk why .

IM IN SO MUCH PAIN. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM AND I CRIED EVERTIME I MISS HIM. WHY AM I SO WEAK ..............