Every girl have this strange and horrible time in their life. It`s time when we fall down and we don`t want to get up. It`s time which each girl experiences in a different way and in a different time. It`s time when we don`t accept ourselves as we are. We think that we are ugly, fat, that we have big nose or ugly hair. We think that we will always be not good enough.
In each girl this part of life have a different duration. It can be one year but also five. It`s just a part of our growing or our ripening.
As a girl I had this time too. It focused on being ugly and fat. It was a long time with breaks. I had no one who could help me at this time.
My self-confident was on the smallest step. It makes me so shy and weak. When I grow up my thinking has changed. I still want to lose weight and be beautiful. But I don’t want to do this for somebody anymore. I don’t want to do this to make people look at me with admiration to say I look good. I don’t wont to do this for people I don’t know or people I don’t even care about. I want to do this for myself. I don’t do this to be skin. I believe that when I lose weight I regain self-confidence. I want do this for me not for you. I want to be proud of myself. It`s important to think like that.
Now I think I`m better with this thinking. I`m as confident as I can. I still work on it and I think it won`t change. I don’t care of what people say about me … not anymore. In my head a lot has change. I understand something. Different doesn`t mean worse, ugly or strange. Different is beautiful even if some people are still afraid of it. I realized I don’t want to be like other girl in my age. I don’t want to become similar to the crowd. I don’t want to look like todays Instagram or Tumblr girl. I want to be different, I want to be myself.
We are different and it`s the most beautiful thing in the world. That`s why world is so amazing. I haven`t finished my journey yet. It still requires a lot of work, but I`m young and I`m hopeful that soon I achieve my goal. I wish it for you too witch all my heart. Remember be yourself, love yourself no meter what they say.
