// It is so difficult to hold on to feelings. After a month without school you've forgotten how tough it feels to sit up all night to write an essay. Two days later you've forgotten how sick you feel after eating a whole bag of chips. In five days you've forgotten how it felt to hold his hand. Four years later you've forgotten how warm your heart felt to hear you grandmother's laugh. And one day later you've forgotten how it felt to have hope.

I wish there was a way to hold on to the feelings. To lock them in a jar to open up just when you're about to forget. To video tape the feelings and replay over and over again when your head is spinning and your heart is beating irregular beats.//