I almost called you, you know.
When I found out I got that job I wanted. The excitement and euphoria I experienced I almost slipped and picked up the phone.

I almost called you.
At 4 AM when my thoughts were racing and my heart was aching. With those damn demons all around me, haunting me.

As I'm writing this I think to myself of what if's.
If I would call you;
Would you pick up or would you let it go to voice mail?
Or have you already blocked my number?

Do you long for my touch the way I do for yours? Do you secretly get excited when you hear your phone go off? Do I run through your mind anymore?

Do you almost call me too?

-r.i.a