Please stop comparing yourself with other girls... I know they are so beautiful and they have a pretty face, a nice smile, a body with curves. I know it's something hard to do because everyone likes hers photos and they are really cute, and they have friends that you wish had. Even your boyfriend likes her... I know it's hard and hurts so much. And these last days I have been doing that, comparing myself, looking reasons why I don't deserve attention or love, but it's the easier way to confront the reality, that I don't love myself. And no matter if I spend hours reading and searching quotes, phrases of motivation, in the end I have the same ideas. That I'm not good enough. And it's so hard... really hard.
I'm in the point that I don't take care of myself, I mean... I don't take a shower in days, my hair is a mess, I don't eat, I wasting my time stalking, and sleeping a lot. I'm telling myself everynight that tomorrow I going to get up early and hang out, and going to read the books that I want to, but when my phone sounds... I turn it off. Every morning I lay in bed and... keep sleeping. I'm destroying myself.
And nobody ask if you're fine, they don't ask why you decided cancel plans... seems like they don't care.
But today I realise one thing. There is one person in the world who should care. It's me, only me.
The start of loving myself and take care of me.
And I hope you find the way to do it. To start to love yourself.