WARNING: This article is a a bit sad, not to much because I believe Chester would like for his life to be celebrated.
20 of July 2017 the day Chester Bennington hanged himself, on the birthday of his close and dear friend who also committed suicide by hanging, Chris Cornell.
I was casually scrolling down my We Heart It home page, on th eve of 20. of July, when I saw a picture of Chester saying Rest In Peace. I didn’t believe it at first and thought ,,Who would make such a sick joke’’, but then just tipping in Chester Bennington on Google the reports of his death flooded the 1st page. After reading a few sites stating the same thing about his death I was speechless . A spent a good half an hour just reading every report about his death I could find, still hoping it didn’t really happen. When i finally realized that it is true...I had a full on crying breakdown.
And I still didn’t want to believe it. I turned to my best friend and texted him the news asking him to check it out, hoping that for some reason I’m hallucinating and he won’t find anything...
In my life I haven’t had many experiences with death luckily, and his death hit me like it was a brother that died. My mum didn’t understand why I was so struck by his death.
I know that there are thousands of fans around the world that are still grieving, as I am, and Linkin Park has done much to tell the fans that they understand that we are grieving to.
I’m writing this, not so good article, because even thought more than a month has passed since his passing and I still can’t shake of the Heavy felling from my chest. When I felt the worst I’d turn to Linkin Parks songs so to anyone who is still struggling about this dark period here are lyrics that with help us get trough this, the way it helped us trough though times before. I always related to his lyrics, and so did thousands.
IN THE END
,,I tried so hard , and got so far.
But in the end, it doesn’t even matter.
I had to fall to lose it all.
But in the end it doesn’t even mattter.’’
HEAVY
,,I don’t like my mind right now
Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go but there is comfort in the panic
And I drive my self crazy
Thinking everything’s about me
Yeah I drive myself crazy
’Cause I can’t escape the gravity
I’m holding on
Why is everything so heavy’’
( this is newer song and it shows that Chester is already struggling, at least to me)
ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE
,,Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And about to brake
I need a little room to breathe
Cause everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
I’m about to brake’’
NUMB
,,I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
Become so tired , so much more aware
I’m becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like you’’
