My heart pounds when I'm afraid
and I am afraid of many, many things.
Courage isn't with me at any part of the day,
but "You're the bravest!", that's what everyone thinks.

I'm scared of people, the future,
love, yes, even of the clicking sound of a pen,
every second I'm anxious is like torture,
back then is the time when this endless suffering began.

I'm tired, so tired of being scared,
I don't want it to control my life,
but it does and my prayers are unheard,
this is a never-ending, ever-lasting fight.

You don't understand, I'm really trying to be brave,
being someone you aren't ain't easy, though,
I clearly know this ain't no way to behave,
but I'm to afraid to change - my anxiety just won't go.

@alithe