I'm not angry anymore. I'm in pain.

You'll have great happy moments and just when you think things are fine, SUPRISE! The feeling always come back. You feel the same sad emptiness every single day. It leaves me feeling so empty and down.I've tried everything. Friends, education. But no matter how hard I try, it never seems to be enough. It sucks. And I know people will tell me that I just need to think more positive. But it's not as simple as that. I just wish it would go away. This feeling...

I thought that when ı grow, things would be different, I just thought...that things would be different.

You know you're hanging out your friends(?), talking and at the moment you feel great,you're in a good happy place. But sooner or later that happy feeling always goes away and emptiness kicks in again.

Do I sound crazy? GOD, I feel like I sound so crazy. I'm just crying and I don't know why it makes me feel like there is something wrong with me. And it's hard to admit so it becomes easier to lie and act like everything's OK. So that's what I say, I say that I'm fine.