anxiety is so awful.
i can it there and overthink every single thing i do. or should do. or shouldn't. or what's going to happen. it's killing me. i feel so scared of doing anything. lately i keep thinking that everyone is going to leave me. and i don't want that so instead im leaving them. it's like i'm breaking my own heart. i push away everyone i love. when in reality no one relly wanted to leave me. but sometimes it's too late or too hard for me to clean up the mess i made.