I know who I am. But I still don't completely understand how to control myself. I am a mess of emotions. I don't know if I have four or seven personalities. I get so mad and upset I leave myself speechless; yet in my head it is racing so fast its about to hit a wall going 220 mph. I'm broken beyond repair, mentally and physically. But when I look into his eyes, I forget it all. I seem normal for a little bit. I lose myself in him. And, for once, it is calm. I am calm. I have found my happy place.