life is hard. and its supposed to be. I'm thankful it is. I can look for hours. search for a meaning with my life. and in the end all I will find out about life is that its hard and that it will end. my life will end. and I'm not afraid. why be? I can change the way I want my future to be, but I can't change the fact that I, one day, will die. there for I'm going to live my life the fullest. Im in love with life. and at the same time I want my ending right now in this moment. its weird. I like it. I'm weird. and that I like too.