I was lying in bed when questions like ''What is life?'' ''What does life mean to me?'' ''When do I feel like I'm living my life?'' popped up in my head. This is what always happens when I go to sleep. My brain gets filled with questions I do not know the answer to. These questions make sure that it will take hours before I can actually fall asleep.
So what does life actually mean to me? Or does it even has a meaning? I don't know if I would ever be able to answer that question. But what I do know is that I want to give life a meaning. I want to live life and with living life I don't mean to breathe and to exist. I mean to experience and to discover.
I want to prevent my life from becoming a routine. I don't want to wait for the time to pass without actually living in the moment. I wish I didn't have to remind myself to live my life to the fullest.

Another question that I've been asking myself lately is what I want to do after I'm done with high school. The routine of every day waking up to go to school and going to sleep to wake up again to go to school again. The routine that people expect you to fill your teenage years with. And they expect you to fill the rest of your life with more school and more studying to end it with a job that you might not even like. But the thing is I'm not alive in this world to meet people's expectations. I believe I'm here to make the most of the live that I'm lucky to have and actually enjoy it by filling it with things that I enjoy. There's nothing wrong with learning, but I want to learn by discovering, experiencing and making mistakes. Not by following a school system that was set up by the government, to me that way of learning is too limited. If it makes other people happy they should totally do it, because if it makes you happy, there's nothing wrong with that. But for me it doesn't.

I think the thing I want to say to you and to myself is that you should do what you want to do as long as it doesn't hurt others. And you should do it now. Because before you know it you're time has passed. Don't waste another minute. It doesn't matter if people think different about it because it's your life, not theirs. I think everyone should accept that and live their own life how they want to. Because to me, there's nothing worse, than ruining someone's dreams by saying it's not ''realistic'' or that they ''can't do it''. Just because others might live their life differently, doesn't mean the way you want to live your life is not realistic. Everyone values different things in life. She might wants to study, get a job she likes and be assured of income, while he might want to discover the world, no matter if he is assured of income or not.

So please don't tell yourself things are not realistic, because if you want to live your life in a certain way it might not be ''socially accepted'' but that doesn't mean it's unrealistic or not achievable. I don't think you should even consider if something is socially accepted or not. With that I'm not saying you should just do whatever you want without thinking about it. What I mean is I think you should do whatever you want as long as it doesn't hurt someone else. Don't wait for others to give your life a purpose.

''A reminder for myself and others''.
- Luana Nadine