i'm sorry to bother with this shit post,

i just need to get something of my chest,

for the past few years i woke up every morning thinking today could be my last day today something bad is gonna happen,
and everyday nothing bad would happen to me..
i have told myself so many times i wouldn't make it past the age of 18. i told myself that past 18 everything gets difficult so at the age of 18 i would end my life.

but recently i've been waking up excited for what life has to bring me,
i'm happy.
truly happy and thankful for what i have.

I think i'll make it past 18