I wonder why I am like this, why I am not very selfish, why I will never judge a person just because they have did bad to someone close to me, why I won't hate a person who seem to have habit I would consider bad if I were them. All of this is keeping me up at night, because the people I am still being kind to are worst, I know they will do bad to me no matter how much I try to be good to them. Well I guess they don't matter that much to affect my kindness.