So, you're always trying to "fit in". The question is why? Living your life just like everyone else makes you like everyone else when you are so much better. Your fear to stand out, is holding you back from your accomplishments and you to live a life that is full of things that are beyond you. Set yourself free, express yourself, take every opportunity to learn and expand your mind, do something good for someone, wear whatever you want even though "it's weird", be weird, be different, be YOU. Let your imaginations run wild. Once you believe in yourself, let things go that don't serve you, you will start to experience your happiness. Just be you, not her.