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I know each corner of the drowning city, its maze made of canals and countless bridges. And of the orphanage I grew up in: as far as I can remember, religious silence, dark veiled nuns and the smell of incense through naves and chapels.
No mum or dad, I was just another "Mary's daughter", left on the orphanage's doorway.
In my small and dank room I could see my breath sometimes, like little smoky clouds, cradled by the swish of gondolas and the chirps of swallows from the open window.
In those never-ending empty evenings, beefing up funeral procession or overhearing young nuns' chatter between the grains of the rosary, there was always the fear of growing old and alone, like a steady background noise, no holy calling and no place to go.
But then one night, oh I still can picture how the water was reflecting me upside down, while I was running away from the heavy glances of the benefactor, my tears surrounded by the lights and laughter of the Carnival. I had just picked up a forgotten golden mask when I saw him for the very first time. -you shouldn't be crying on your own in such a night, you can cry with me underneath the fireworks -
The nuns describe the devil as blood red, with horns and sharp teeth, but now I know that his words taste like heaven and the soft summer sky in his eyes is almost as sweet as his touch. Maybe he wasn't a devil after all, he was some kind of angel. He was Casanova.
Oh, the heavy hand of the abbess, the taste of blood through my shameful lips, but the pain doesn't matter, it never did: he promised.
And tonight, I'll run from bridge to bridge, canal after canal, up to him. Even if he won't be there.
And tonight, walking softly through the orphanage's long and dark corridors, I look up at the statues of the saints: they have known me my entire life, and tonight, oh tonight I hope they are fast asleep. Or at least, that their holy eyes won't judge me too harshly.

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playlist:
- Keane - Atlantic
- Halsey - Garden
- Halsey - Is There Somewhere
- Cashmere Cat - Quit feat. Ariana Grande

Thank you for reading!
Juliet ~♥