Some time this truth is going to hang me with a noose,
my broken heart is bleeding furiously.
And my back is throbing from how many times you have betrayed me.
I`m losing my mind in this raging war in side.
My emotions i can not hide.
My grip on reality is falling away and i`m tearing my self up
for things i never men`t to do.
I sorry i cant be what you need, or what you want.
I cant even be what i need.
i`m no where near the water but i`m drowning.
and you cant even see me.
I wish i could banish my memories and start all over.
But life never turns out my way.
so Ill keep drowning under these waves.
-Joss